Necessities

[vampish_aleera]

To be made to mewl like infant cat, to have anger and empowerment stolen from me... I do not welcome these things.

The kills, I give apologies for, but no longer mistake the prior regret which consumed me, for weakness. Things happened which should not, but I have no need to devour myself with this frustrating guilt.

It had gnawed at me like dog for bones and I sever myself from this madness.

Comments

[failedcreator.livejournal.com]

You seek to sever yourself from this guilt?

[vampish_aleera]

I already have. There is no guilt for me in these matters.

[failedcreator.livejournal.com]

They you do not truly regret what you have done?

[vampish_aleera]

Regret and guilt are not always the same.

[failedcreator.livejournal.com]

Perhaps they are not. Although perhaps you seek to divorce yourself from blame completely.

[vampish_aleera]

Does the farmer feel guilt for slaughtering his pigs? Does the owl feel sorry for taking mice?

No. No, they do not.

[failedcreator.livejournal.com]

You view the humans of the barge as animals? Is this so?

[vampish_aleera]

No.

I have now written many words on this subject... They will confuse your brain, I have no doubt, but you feel free to read them, eh?

[failedcreator.livejournal.com]

You assume my ignorance in these matters. I am greatly offended.

[vampish_aleera]

I would be surprised if any brains are not scrambled by my words.

[failedcreator.livejournal.com]

You believe your words truly have such merit?

[vampish_aleera]

Merit...?

[failedcreator.livejournal.com]

That they can truly change the mind of men.

[private]

[feels-no-love.livejournal.com]

If I did not say it before...it is...

[he's having even more trouble feeling right now than usual, so it takes him a bit before he writes the next line.]

It is a relief to see you with your old fire back. At the time I was being ridiculously sentimental, but seeing you in such a state concerned me.

Re: [private]

[vampish_aleera]

I would be more worried if it had not...

[private]

[feels-no-love.livejournal.com]

I am not made of stone. At least...not with you. But that was, well--

[Another hesitation.]

--if you really must know, I could not stop thinking on you and your troubles while we were in that state. To a...deeply distracting degree.

Re: [private]

[vampish_aleera]

It was best that I had been left alone. The guilt made me dwell... I do not know what I would have done.

I no longer understand it. This way of thinking is now foreign to me.

[private]

[feels-no-love.livejournal.com]

I understood your need for solitude. You were simply...in my thoughts.

And yes, I am glad it is foreign to you now.

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[darknessb4me]

I wish I could tear him apart.

All my characters permanently default to text! :)

[vampish_aleera]

I did tear him apart.

<3

[darknessb4me]

The thing that was messing with everyone?

[vampish_aleera]

I did not see Loki create messes with anyone.

Save for my hand...

[darknessb4me]

I was talking about whoever it was that was altering memories.

Because I think nobody's meant to remember anything about him!

[vampish_aleera]

It was a flooding.